Working on me...then and now
I know we all consider ourselves Momma Bears....It's just instinctive. These two are my whole world. Some days I think I'm winning at this whole mom thing and other days I wonder where I went wrong. The struggle of trying to let go of all of my expectations as a mom and parent are sometimes, most times, exhausting....fast forward this post from here.
This picture above was taken 4 years ago...bottom picture, 3 weeks ago. A lot has changed about the woman you see in these pictures. I have learned more in the last 4 years than I have in a whole lifetime. These 2 right here...still my world. Not my whole world though. I am so much in between. Reading what I wrote then, I decided to keep it to show just how much I have grown into more of who I really am.
I look at that momma and know she was doing all she could to make everyone around her happy. At that time it was enough for her. Fast forward to today, I am fulfilled by taking care of myself so that I can be there for me and my family. I wasn't taking care of my needs first, that has changed. I have learned that I am fulfilled and happier when I fill my cup first.
Without getting into all of the challenges over the last 4 years, which was enough for a lifetime for me, I know now that I had to go through all of it to be where I am today. I'm at peace, which I practice daily through meditation, movement, salutation to the sun, gratitude. I'm here for it all. Ready to be of service, to learn, to grow and live life to its fullest.